by Macy Johnson
“The law from your mouth is more precious to me than thousands of pieces of silver and gold.” Psalm 119:72 NIV
Christmas 1995 had come and gone. Tax season was in full swing in the little CPA firm in Birmingham, Alabama, where I worked. New tax preparation software was stealing family time, but I diligently continued to lead a weekly Bible Study at my church.
A handful of women faithfully attended the class, usually with small children underfoot. My own offspring played with their school assignments in back of the classroom. It was a study I led for over 3 years, and interest was dwindling. “Why should I continue to lead this study?” I asked myself.
That Christmas I wanted a silver cross on a long, silver chain. Everyone I saw wore one – friends at church, co-workers, strangers on the street. Every time I got the urge to buy one for myself, I sensed God hold me back.
One morning I received a phone call at work. A woman in the Bible Study wanted to meet with me. There in my office she poured out her heart, her pain, her struggles and confessions. We cried, prayed, and laughed together. She stood to leave, reached into her purse, and said, “God told me this morning to give this to you. I’m not sure why. I bought it in Mexico last summer while traveling with my husband, put it in my dresser drawer when we got home, and forgot about it. This morning God put it on my mind to give it to you.”
She drew the small, gray pouch from her purse. I imagined what was inside that soft cloth bag. She placed the small gift in my hands and I heard my heavenly Father whisper, “I love you. I am all you need.” I pulled out the most beautiful silver cross I had ever seen, simple, perfect. Tears streamed down my face.
If you are like me, we try to satisfy our desires on our own, only to miss the perfect gift He already has for us… Himself. God puts the desires in our hearts so He can fill them and amaze us with His personal, powerful love.
I thought obedience would bring blessings and missed the most precious jewel, a closer relationship with God. We are instruments of blessings, being blessed in ways we’ll never understand.