Doubting Disciples

by Macy Johnson

“So the other disciples told Thomas, “We have seen the Lord!” But he said to them, “Unless I see the nail marks in his hands and put my finger where the nails were, and put my hand into his side, I will not believe it.”

(John 20:25 NIV)

Are you ready to see Jesus?

Thomas was absent when others welcomed the resurrected Messiah. Poor Thomas. Where was he? What kept him away from those who mourned the loss of their beloved leader?

Hardheaded skepticism held him back from rejoicing, believing, and encouraging his comrades in their experience, their unique God Sighting.

When have I doubted God’s presence, His existence, His power?

Seated at my office desk I doubted God. Persecuted, abandoned, tortured by my peers, I contemplated walking out the door and never looking back. My Savior was dead. I thought, “God, if you really care, please send some relief, a sign!”

“Trouble and distress have come upon me, but your commands are my delight.”

(Psalm 119:143 NIV)

My desk phone rang. The financial officer in another division called to offer a newly-created position within the company to me. We had worked together on special projects and he sought my help. “Well, that sounds very appealing,” I said, “but I need something permanent at my current salary.”

“You’ve got it,” he said. “How soon can you start?”

My doubts immediately turned into faith. God did not let me suffer longer than necessary. Thomas’ doubts also turned into faith when he was ready to see Jesus.

Recognize doubts and surrender to faith as it knocks or calls. Get up and get moving, open your eyes and look for Him everywhere, even in a dark, upper-room with doubting disciples.

I will push all doubts and fears out of my mind today and step out in faith. I hope you will, too!